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Original Fiction

Something I wrote in about ten minutes just now.
Original characters
Possibly will be used again
Rated lower than G, whatever that is.
Enjoy, lemme know what you think!

I've realized a lot of things about myself in the past weeks.

I've realized that I'm a stronger person than I ever thought I was. I realized that I can get along without someone at my side. I realized that my best friends love me more than anyone else possibly could.

I learned that I am not willing to give up that love.

I realized that being strong means making sacrifices.

And I realized, watching Jane walk away from me, that what was, was. And what will be, will come.

And when it does, I will be ready for it.

In the meantime, I'll sit here, reading, watching, waiting, for the right girl to come along. The one who will make you feel like you've been sucker punched.

I'm sure you all know the feeling.

Right now, it happens every time I see Jane with Brady. Or hear him talk about her. But one day...one day it'll happen.

I've learned that giving up hope is the worst thing you can do. Because even when it seems like hope is the thing that hurts the most when it leaves after a break-up, or divorce, or argument, it's not that fickle of a thing.

Hope blossoms, it blooms. It nourishes itself on your thoughts and dreams.

And so it's always there.

Believe me, I know there are times when it feels like you are the only person in the world, and all you want to do is just talk to someone, anyone, about it. But you feel like none of your friends are there, like they can't get to you...like you're drowning in shallow water.

It's then when we need hope the most. We give up on the things we love doing because we feel like there is no point, like there is no use doing the things we love if nothing is going to come of it, if everything we loved leaves in the end.

Because we love with passion. To quote Joss Whedon, "passion controls us". Not only in love, but in everything. Everything and anything you ever felt some connection with.

You stop. And that makes the hole worse. Gives you more time to dwell.

And then you realize that it's not all bad. That things are--and can be--good. That you have people who love you.

And that it still hurts, but hope is in the process of returning, stretching its wings, and ready to soar over the pain into a new dream.

I learned to never give up hope. I've seen how bleak the world can be without it.

Comments

so i really liked it. favorite quote (cuz i usually have one):

"But you feel like none of your friends are there, like they can't get to you...like you're drowning in shallow water."

i've never heard it said like that. idk. that last line really stood out to me. i like it.

yays! and i shall finish mine up, and actually post something on this journal.

*smiles*

*cassie
Awww. That was cute and sad and pretty. I know how you feel... especially this part:

"...there are times when it feels like you are the only person in the world, and all you want to do is just talk to someone, anyone, about it. But you feel like none of your friends are there, like they can't get to you...like you're drowning in shallow water."

YEAH. O_O Like you ripped it out of my own brain. :D I love you and I'm glad you're writing more. I should too. >_>